Tuesday, September 26, 2006
u were always there for me..
u were my leaning pillar
crying shoulder
listening ear..
how can i forget all those times we had together???
although there might be loads of misunderstanding btw us...
i still love u...
but i guess it's my age..
i'm still young u know.
at this age i hate to get lectures,
being told what to/not to do
being bossed arnd...
it's just that i feel so thight..
nowadays, i'm so afriad to share my feelings with u..
it's like i'm scared that u'll dislike whatever..
i was so afraid of letting u down.
u gotta chill a little.
not everything will be the way u want it to be.
and u were not my worst option..
it's just that when u wanna talk to me like that,
sound nicer pls...
maybe then i'll be happily listening to u...
and for heaven's sake, i don't think like that...
i respect u...
u were with me when i needed someone there for me..
just like what all sisters will do.
and i don't get what u mean by everyone's on my side???
did u always think like that??
if u did..
that was so wrong...
don't ever think like that..
humm.. another thing..
remember the sunday after our chalet trip..
when we were waiting for the others.
remember what u told me..
"i'm sorry if i bossed u arnd too much, just don't talk abt this behind my back"..
when i heard this my heart sank soo much.. =(
i felt like crying..
i may have done it once...
but that was a long time ago..
when i was much younger..
and it was also to another of our gal...
*haiz* i really dunno..
why do u think i hate u??
i never did...
and i never will.... oh my god...
someone has to break that big egoistic bubble on top of ur head..
i do not miss you!!!
in fact i barely know u..
but i would like to get to know abt u...
after exams... : p once again.. missjudged!!!
it was
her dream ...
3:03:00 PM
Saturday, September 23, 2006
And it's here again...
Exams...
*urgh*... so irritating la..
i hate exams'..
whoever who invented it is an idiot!!!
i swear!!!
anywayz..
have been preparing for exams..
have been studying hard..
and will continue till o'level finishes..
oh and i'm aiming to go JC!!!!
i was thinking maybe SAJC or CJC..
i think i can do it..
but i gotta work really hard la..
but i know i can do it.. =) Anywayz..
have been studying with Nithia and Suzanna at night..
it helps me alot...
although me and my frens have fun all the time.
that doesn't mean that we cannot study right...
we are serious when it comes to studies..
thats why i like my frens..
i may have been in bad companies b4..
but i realized my mistakes and i changed myself..
i don't think i need to proof that to anyone..
cause i know for myself...
and i've had enough problems ready..
i'm so sick of it.. Why is everything i do wrong????
i don't get what's the problem???
i know u hate me for whatever i do..
but i'm not u..
i can't be u..
i can't be a perfectionist..
haiz....
sometimes i hate myself..
cause u tell me off..
but u know what.. ive learnt something..
that i'm who i am..
there's no point changing me..
even if u like it or not... **Bunny's eyes made me melt.. hummmm... =)*
it was
her dream ...
5:28:00 PM
Friday, September 15, 2006
1.WHAT DO U NORMALLY THINK OF B4 GOINGTO BED?
-hope my future romeo gets a good night sleep.. =)
2.WHAT DO YOU LOVE MOST?
-being loved, hugs, love notes, chocolates...
3.WHAT DO U NOTICE FIRST IN THE OPPOSITEGENDER?
-his eyes, height = P, his cheeks (check to see if he has a dimple)
4.WHAT DO U THINK IS THE CUTEST THINGYOUR BF/GF CAN DO?
- to vent all his anger on me.. and come backtrying to strike a normal conversation with cute reluctance... hehehe...
5.ONE THING YOU WOULD DO WHEN YOURBF/GF SLAPS YOU OUT OF ANGER
-walk up to him and hug him with teary eyes, and say " i still love ya"
6.YOU IN ONE WORD
-sensitive?!!??
7.ATTACHED?
-nope...
8.LOOKING?
-at the momment nope... happy the way i am...
9.ONE THING YOU LOVE ABOUT THE OPPOSITE GENDER.
-when ever he gets jealous.. but try to hide it away from me.
10.BEST TIME KISS YOUR GF/BF.
-when he's not expecting it.. after he come's back from a tired day at work.
11.BEST WAY TO IRRITATE YOUR BF/GF.
-not kissing him when he s expecting it.. hehehe...
12.THE PLACES YOU WOULD LOVE TO GETKISSED.
-tip of the nose. cheeks. neck. eyes. forehead.
13. BEST TIME YOU WANNA BE KISSED
-when am blur.when am sleeping.when i least expect it.when am gonna cry
14.WORST TIME TO BE KISSED
-when am eating.when i'm sticky and smelly.
15. 3 THINGS YOU'LL DO DEAD BAD.
- to seduce. to do house chores. to feed (he'll probably be dirty by the time i finish feeding..hehe)
16. 3 SEXIEST HOUSE CHORES
- umm... wiping the ceiling fan with a towel. mopping the floor with a piece of cloth. n can't think of the third one.. hehe..
17.KOOKY THINGS BY YOU IN STORE FORYOUR FUTURE WIFE/ HUBBY.
-sit on his tummy, tickle him all over,while he's trying to get some sleep.get under the blanket with him and pester him to buy me ice-cream. = p
18.SWEETEST THING A GUY/GAL CAN DO TOYOU
-umm... tell me i love u whenever i'm sad.. hehe...
19. WHAT ATTRACTS YOU TO A GUY/GAL?
-the way he stares into my eyes. his frown. =)
21.WHAT ARE YOUR FLAWS?
-jealous.not giving up on something i love, even if its gonna ruin me..
22.A MISERY YOU WOULD NVR WANT IT TOHAPPEN TO YOU.
-to love a guy whom i cant get to live with.. =(
23.BY MIND OR BY HEART
-i follow my heart but i do take my brains along..the heart onli knows what it wants and what it doesnt.. the mind is rather what that weighs the cost and benefits of all our deeds. u need em both...
24.ONE THING YOU'RE WAITING TO DO.
-build that dream house...
25.WHAT OTHERS DON'T KNOW ABT YOU.
-i love myself... hehe...
26.BEST RELATIONSHIP?
- TO BE LOVED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
27.ONE THING U HATE MOST.
-overprotectiveness
28.A THING YOU BELIEVE IN.
- what goes arnd.. comes arnd
29.OPTIMISM OR PESSIMISM?
-optimism.. sometimes pessimism.. i think..
hehe
30.HOW DO U FEEL AFTER ANSWERING ALLTHESE QUESTIONS?
-kinda hesitating to post it... some questions areway to0.. ya know.. but its okay. i still dare. *thulasi* a msg to the person who dared me to post this: see.. i dare. =) and eventhough it's not friendster.. it's as good k??? hehe... PPL i dare to try this.. = JESS!!!!! Suzanna and Suhaila hehe.. enjoy
it was
her dream ...
12:43:00 PM
Wednesday, September 13, 2006
u know..
i wish i was back in the olden days
where love was forbidden.
i know it's a strange wish...
but i see no point in falling in love at young age...
kk.. what i'm really trying to say is..
i wish in this modern world there was no such thing as
STEADY!!!!
man.. whenever i think abt it..
it bring's chill down my spine...
i see no use in getting to a relationship so early
trust me ppl i'm talking with experience..
what's the first thing that comes to ur head when u first get into a relationship...
for me it was... how long will it last???
i was already dreaming of getting married and how many kids i 1na have...
then after it was over...
i felt as if my whole world just ended.
and i thought i'll never get married again and will die a virgin..
haha... kk.. i'm starting to talk nonsense ready...
humm.. then after abt 4 months... iwas like..
neah.. why should i cry over spilt milk...
and i realized something else.
that even though how much u want it to last..
it never does.. in the end u get hurt..
not that it never...
only abt 10% of childhood lovers get married in the end..
for e.g. like my vice prinicipal. Mr.Vimal..
he met his wife in his kampung..
it;s kinda sweet.. but i'm thinking practical..
as for me..
i think i still have time..
i mean let's enjoy life now...
don't wanna get commited...
my knight is somewhere there.. =)
waiting to sweep me off my feet...
but he can wait though...
cause i'm not yet ready to be swept off my feet.. *love a person 4 who they r... not 4 who they pretend to be!!!*
it was
her dream ...
8:22:00 AM
Friday, September 08, 2006
+ Describe love in 1 word:
`` fairtytale!!! =P
+ Would you dare to fool your bf/gf?:
`` fool as in????
+ What do you do when you've been hurt by the 1u love?:
``humm... talk abt it to them and make sure theyrealize their mistakes... or else.. take the last walk la... =P
+ Single or committed?:
`` commited la!!!! Jay Sean Pavam leh???? hehe..
+ What do you feel right now?:
`` Hurt... don't ask y
+ Do you miss somebody?
`` hummm.. Miss my Naly... =(
+ Does letting go always means goodbye?:
`` not necesserily... good bye is a strong word thati rarely use.. unles si really mean it..
+ Rate yourself from 1-10, 10 highest, how muchdo you love her/him:
`` 8 1/2 I love JAY SEAN!!!!!
+ Are you willing to love again even if you've beenhurt many times?:
`` hummm.. it's hard... but it's worth giving a shot...
+ Are you in love?:
`` humm... do u consider Jay sean too???
+ Do you prefer to see him/her everyday or not so often?:
`` humm.. it depends on him... biut knowing guys..they might get bored huh...
+ Do you have a bf/gf?:
`` can i have Jay Sean... pls!!!!
+ If God will let you choose the one who will loveyou, what kind of lover would s/he be?
`` u call me one day... i'll tell u.. but make sure ukeep the next 2 hr free... =)
+ Do you fight for love?:
`` u mean like Romeo and Juliet??? haha...
+ How will you know if you're in love?:
`` i always thought that u never know when u'r inlove.. it just happens...but deep inside.. u justknow when that happens... it's kinda sweet.. and alil hard to explain...
+ Have you ever cried for the one you love/like?:
`` hummm... sad to say.. i did.. but now thinkingabt it.. it was silly la.. =P
+ Are you happy or hurt?:
`` by what???
+ Are you loyal with the one you love?:
``Definately... i think Love is abt Loyalty!!!
+ Are you serious when it comes to relationships?
`` definately...
+ Does answering this make you feel sad orhappy?
`` not happy not sad.. just mixed feelings la
+ When was the last time you cried?
``abt three hrs ago.. my contacts were hurting myeyes...
+ Does crying help you? How?:
`` yea.. somehow i manage to feel better and getthings over with..
+ Do you have a secret love?
`` if i tell it out here.. it ain't a secret no more...
+ If yes, do you have any plans of confrontinghim/her about it?
`` well... i shall think abt it................
*thulasi*
it was
her dream ...
2:45:00 PM
Friday, September 01, 2006
It's friday night..
and i'm home alone...
no fair!!!!
bro is staying over at dad's house..
mum went out...
and i'm here chatting...
i wanna go out to!!! =(
i'm bored to death la..
anywayz...
teacher's day celebration yesterday was ok..
the concert was reallllllyyyyy boring la..
most of the stuff was in chinese...
urgh...
M Physics teacher leaving!!!
=( oh man!!!
gonna miss him loads la..
well.. sure hope he'll be back next year...
oh..
last night.
me and mummy went to watch the new Kamal hassan movie!!!!
it was damn nice la!!!!!
u gota watch it..
it's like hollywood movie..
the CSI like that.. =)
highly recommended!!!!
i wanna watch the "......something something" movie also..
kk.. better stop thinking bat movies.. xm's are nearing..
having holidays now..
yeay!!!1 but still need to sudy la..
=( haiya..
k la.. gtg..
will update soon k
tata!!!
it was
her dream ...
11:09:00 PM
